Have you ever wished that time would just SLOW DOWN ALREADY!!! Well, that is exactly how I've been feeling the last little while. My son turns 20 tomorrow and I, to put it mildly, have not been doing well with that fact. Let's just say it has been a little weepy around here for the past couple of days. I think it is a little harder because this is the first birthday of his that I won't be spending with him. As most of you know, he is serving as a missionary for our church. He has been gone for almost a year now and well, I'm just really missing him right now. Don't get me wrong...I don't wish for anything to be different. I KNOW he is soooooo HAPPY and exactly in the right place for him and that makes me soooooo HAPPY, too. That is all a mother wants. It is just a little HARD for ME sometimes and this is one of those times. I can't believe my 4th child is turning TWENTY!!! My baby boy is going to be TWENTY tomorrow! How can this have happened soooo dad gummed fast!! SLOW DOWN TIME I've been wishing! Well, I got my wish. Last night. Time slowed down all right...it came to a dead halt. After a couple hours of restless sleep, at 3:00 am I woke up...and I mean WOKE UP!!! WIDE AWAKE at 3:00 am. Now insomnia and I are old frenemies, but this was exceptionally bad case even for me. After laying there...tossing...turning...staring at the ceiling...quite sure that HOURS have gone by and it is finally time to get up...I check the clock 3:15 am........WHAT?!!! Oh myyyyy I got my wish...time was slowing down...minute by agonizing minute!! Not exactly what I envisioned. I take a bath....I read....I wander aimlessly around the house...I lay there and toss and turn...I do mental exercises that sometimes get me back to sleep...I stare at the ceiling some more...I have the thought (one of THOUSANDS) that well, this is what you wished for...time has slowed down...I check the clock...4:00 a.m. UGH!!! More of the same...UGH!! I have the thought (one again of thousands) this is going to be bad tomorrow...wait amend that...this is going to be bad all week! UGH!! Fall asleep at 5:45 just in time to wake up in a couple of minutes! So to Ty on his birthday tomorrow...I caution...be careful what you wish for...cause it just might come true! To all of you...I hope your wishes come true...well, maybe! BIG HUGS, Cheryl
A little collage of Ty through the years:
Birthday card I made for Ty:
here comes santa claus!
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